how i miss thee

I Miss Thee

I miss thee now! The joys of vanished years,
That long ago have blended with the past,
To me return, and now I see thru tears
My folly of youth’s day that flew so fast.

Ah, had I spoken ere thy passion waned!
Had I but shown the love I might have
shown,
And cheered thy heart so sorely: deeply pained,
Both lives life’s sweetest joys might long
have known.

Love’s warmth and glow were crimsoned on thy
cheek.
Thy rosy lips oft met and re-met mine.
Thou loved’st, but of love thou could’ st not speak,
Thou could’st but wait and let thy heart re-
pine.

I knew not then I loved thee; altho joy,
The purest and the brightest filled my life.
My heart was light^___I was a care free boy,
Until this sorrow filled my soul with strife.

I miss thee! When thy fond heart, failing, turned
Despairing, o’er the distant hills to rove,
My conscience smote me, and my bosom yearned
For love and thee. Ah, then I knew my love!

^__Colfax Burgoyne Harman

seriously.yup.its been 4 months since my last blog entry.indeed, time flies fast.i can only remember during those summer month of may where i started my little space in the cyberworld.yet after 9 entries, i suddenly stopped writing.maybe, i’ve got nothing much to say.or probably, i am too tired writing everything that’s going on in life.all the dramas.pretty much boring.amidst all of this, i really miss visiting this site.feeling excited and happy of all the things i have written here.that’s why, i decided to comeback.

today is the beginning of the end.this will probably be my last teaching semester here in bicol university.it was enrollment day and at the same time the first day of classes.a lot have changed since the first time i set foot in this institution.i was a student back then, full of idealisms and dreams.and now, i am a working ‘woman’ living the reality of life.and that reality suddenly strikes me.today was indeed the last.then i feel sad.and relieved.i will surely miss everything and everyone.from the people that i loved to the people that i seriously hope never to see again.the place.the aura.the bu.bits and pieces of it.i’m surely gonna miss.somehow.but isn’t this what i want.to finally break away from the same institution the reared and employed me.this is really the best time to  move on.move on with my life.and finally follow and chase my dreams.and i can never be thankful enough.yes, thank you to you.it was a great experience being here and relearning so many other things.

what will happen to me tomorrow.no idea.nor i am scared.there’s excitement in knowing what the future is in store for me.but still, i will miss the predictability of my life.the routine.the sked.the structure.by the time i am finished here, ive still got nothing to go.but as the saying goes :

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you. – Deuteronomy 31:6

then, i guess, i will be ok.